Have you recovered fully from depersonalisation,i am fed up with emptyness of life, living to kill time?

I have OCD too and understand where you're at in your head. Have you tried any other antidepressants other than Abilify? Maybe that's the wrong medication for you. I struggle with trying to find the right meds for my symptoms, so I know how you feel. Hang in there. It's a tough road we walk.